guys, i can’t even.
i say that a lot. i can’t even. what does that even mean. but i do use hyperbole a lot. like so much it kills me. but why? is my life so intense? why can’t i just feel things to a mediocre degree? i don’t know, and i may never know. but when I’m all in, I’m like seriously all in.
i want it all, or nothing at all. i swear, switchfoot sings. my. life.
like when i love doctor who. i had ants in my pants just waiting for the first episode of series nine. that show man. it knocks my socks off. it makes me squeeeee with delight. i died when peter capaldi rocked out on his ‘axe’ and shredded a totally wicked riff on the doctor who theme song on doctor who as doctor who. i couldn’t. even. *dying right now, just remembering*
moffat, i applaud you, and if you kill off missy again i will kill you.
i geek out the the nth degree about these things. doctor who, marvel comics, etc. but thats unreality. what about reality? what am i totally passionate about in real life? or do i just live in my dreams, in my fantasies?
i was asked recently, what occupies my thoughts? after some hardcore introspection, i realized that it was mostly about doctor who and the tardis, daydreaming about getting perfect head shots on counter-strike *ultrakill! god-like!*, mentally editing papers and this blog, and then, surprisingly, the people i pray for. right? shocker!
but i honestly do find myself thinking about conversations I’ve had over coffee/lunch and praying for those wonderful people. in-between lobbing a perfectly timed flash bang and then coming round the corner with a shotty and annihilating all the terrorists.
I’ve realized that my mind is a raging battlefield, and one kind of thought will always surpass the other, in the end. its like the story about two wolves fighting – which one will win? answer: the one you feed.
ergo, if i feed my passion for fantasy and escapism, that’s what will eventually dominate my thoughts. but if i feed my care for others and grow my prayer life, always depending on God for strength and wisdom, then perhaps, that might change my reality, and the reality of people around me. man, what an audacious thought! but how amazing of an experiment would that be? that’s like, literally life-changing.
and you know what else? this muffin i made.
it literally has everything good in it – whole grains, nuts, vegetables, fruit, flax seeds, eggs… its all you’ll ever need for breakfast. or a snack. or life. (kay, just kidding about the last one.)
everything good muffin
makes 24 muffins
- 1 cup whole wheat flour
- 1/2 cup oat flour
- 1/2 cup almond flour
- 2 teaspoons baking powder
- 2 teaspoons baking soda
- 2 teaspoons cinnamon
- 1 teaspoon kosher salt
- 4 large eggs, at room temperature
- 1 scant cup sugar
- 1 1/2 cup vegetable oil
- 2 cups finely shredded carrots
- 1/2 cup currants
- 1/2 cup flax seeds
- 3/4 cup shredded unsweetened coconut
- 3/4 cup freeze dried apples, crushed
- 1 tablespoon brown sugar plus 1 teaspoon cinnamon, mixed together
- liberally butter two regular sized muffin pans, and dust with flour, tapping out the excess.
- preheat oven to 350 degrees F.
- sift together the flours, baking powder, baking soda, cinnamon, and salt into a bowl and set aside.
- in a bowl of a stand mixer fitted with the whisk attachment, combine the eggs and sugar. whisk on medium speed until well combined and lightened in colour, about 2 minutes. reduce speed to low, slowly drizzle in the oil, and whisk till combined, then whisk on high speed for 1 minute to emulsify.
- switch to the paddle attachment. add the dry ingredients in three additions and beat on medium speed until smooth, about 2 minutes. add the carrots, currants, flax seeds, coconut, and apples and beat just to combine.
- remove bowl from the mixer and scrape down the sides with a spatula. fold by hand a few more times.
- divide batter into muffin tins. (i found a 1/4 cup per muffin hole was perfect).
- sprinkle muffin tops with brown sugar and cinnamon mixture.
- bake muffins, one tray at a time, for 20-25 minutes, or until an inserted toothpick comes out clean.
- let cool on wire racks, then remove from muffin tin, running an offset spatula around the sides to loosen and remove muffins.
- to store: when muffins are completely cool, wrap in saran wrap, and store up to 3 days, or freeze up to 2 months.
heavily adapted from Miette’s carrot cake recipe.